The subtler problem is that we tend to think about habit change wrongly. (I'm not talking about physiological addictions.) We get trapped in a paradox: we want to, say, stop watching so much TV, but on the other hand, demonstrably, we also want to watch lots of TV – after all, we keep doing it – so what we really want, it seems, is to stop wanting. We're mired deep in what the Greeks called "akrasia": deciding on the best course of action, then doing something else. The way round this, says Newby-Clark and others, is to see that habits are responses to needs. This sounds obvious, but countless efforts at habit change ignore its implications. If you eat badly, you might resolve to start eating well, but if you're eating burgers and ice-cream to feel comforted, relaxed and happy, trying to replace them with broccoli and carrot juice is like dealing with a leaky bathroom tap by repainting the kitchen. What's required isn't a better diet, but an alternative way to feel comforted and relaxed. "The chains of habit are too weak to be felt until they are too strong to be broken," Dr Johnson observed gloomily, but maybe by looking at the problem differently we can still, Houdini-like, slip out of them.
I was having difficulty sleeping before the meds anyway, so i don't think it is a side effect of them for me, more a symptom of the illness. i can now sleep okish. i can still wake up ear;ly, but when i did that before there was no getting back to sleep, now i can. i can still struggle to feel even remotely tired in the night time, and on those days I have taken a sleeping tablet. but it is a vast improvement. i'm not needing them every night and can sleep. it makes a lot of difference. and yea i feel like i am doing really well now, and it's actually a bit of surprise considering i was so low such a short space of time ago!